by Rokkr » Mon May 22, 2006 4:31 am
It's funny you mention that song. In a lot of ways it became my theme song during my punk days.
While being a punk was liberating and gave a lot of us a sense of belonging we'd never had, it also became in some ways just like what we never belonged to.
Restrictive, uniform and controlling.
Was your hair right?
Your clothes?
Did you only listen to the "right" music?
Sneer at the right things?
While this wasn't the case with everyone involved, there was always a vocal minority looking to enforce these "rules."
Was this music "punk" enough?
Attitude correct?
Music too "slick?"
While it wasn't enough to ruin what I look back upon as one of the best times in my life, it was enough to annoy me.
I refused to wear the "uniform, I wore whatever I liked, some fit, some didn't.
I refused to stop liking music I had always liked, whether it was funk or country & western or metal.
I never died my hair or had tattoos.
I never spit on bands whther I liked them or not, nor did I indulge in mindless acts of nihilism (i.e. vandalism or theft.)
I got along fine with most people, but there were always a few that just had to make issues of some of these things, sometimes in aggressive ways.
The reason I embraced punk was that I'd never felt at home with the establishment; flower power was ok with me, but I never really felt part of that either.
Punk was the first and only social group I'd ever felt truly at home in.
Now at 54, there isn't any social group I really feel at home in anymore.
Now as then, in many ways I felt shot by both sides.
The writer is probably right; Howard may have felt that way too.
Edit:
A more recent example.
About 15 years ago, I was approached by the Democratic party in the city I lived in to become a precinct chairman.
I had gotten to the point in my life where I thought perhaps it was time to work within the system to effect some change.
I held this position for a couple of years, but what I learned of the political system at the grass roots level disgusted me.
It was the same shit I'd seen all my life; do exactly this, say exactly this, do not deviate from the script.
If you do, you're against us.
Don't try to mitigate any of our positions or policies.
And above all don't say what you truly think.
This applied to both parties as I got intimate glimpses of both.
I still recall a political meeting where I made the mistake of saying I had seen situations where unions were detrimental to the workers themselves.
Specifically I had worked in a manufacturing plant where the unions were so restrictive, so concerned with their wages and rights, that they literally closed the plant and put hundreds out of work.
I was privately told afterward to keep my views on unions to myself.
I quit on the spot.